I feel sick. Not the I want to throw up, I think I ate something weird kind of sick. I don't want to leave him.
I'm sick of not being able to express anything. I'm sick of thinking I'm going to sound like an idiot. I'm sick of feeling weak. I can't make the words come out. I don't want this to fuck up. I don't want to go back. I'm beginning to miss him too much.